...my beloved, though imperfect, city.
Arriving upbeat at work today, someone asked why I was particularly chipper. I said, "I don't know but it might have something to do with listening to James Taylor on the way here." To which my co-worker remarked, "Oh, is he a preacher or something?"
Just let that sit with you for a while and you will begin to feel what I've been feeling since August.
Yeah... really... just let that sit with you...
Seminary is a weird place. It doesn't matter where you go, they are all pretty weird. A bunch of people who hunker down for 3 years to study God are going to turn out a little weird... and not in the Asheville weird sort of way... in a "you are turning more square than a postage stamp" sort of weird. In a "you can't see the earth for the bark" sort of way.
And... New England is a weird place. There is a thick busy-ness in the air of Boston suburbia that makes people crazy. Education and work define you. Money is the commodity of value. Being tough is being respected. Pleasure is something you buy.
I was struck today (after the James Taylor comment) that what I perceived to be pathetic homesickness and general crankiness over being "here" rather than "there" (while that is certainly going on) is due in large part to what we would call "culture shock." I arrived here 6 months ago with loads of enthusiasm to explore, to befriend, to connect, to adventure - and I'm realizing now that my model for community building and growth was not "working" with the square peg I found myself in.
So, while I can appreciate the New England coastline, historic towns, beautiful colonial architecture, the academic rigor of the seminary, the challenge of Protestant Scholasticism, the detailed exegesis, I really long for my own culture. A culture that, apparently, assumes everyone knows who James Taylor is and resonates with why one would feel happy listening to him on the way to work.
This is not a New England or seminary bash... though I'm tempted to label "bad place, good place." I know that my affection for my culture is not one rooted in some absolute ideal of what makes a place wonderful. I love it because it has that quality that no other place could reasonably assume... it's home.
May I never take for granted...
friendly smiles of strangers
being called "honey" or "sweetheart" by old ladies at grocery stores
a slower pace of life
people who don't know, ask, or care what degrees you have or what job you do
nuns on large bicycles
neighbors walking goats
folks who are always looking for an opportunity to laugh
men wearing capes
women wearing tutus
heavily tattooed and pierced people who instead of being thugs, would give you the shirt of their back
walking to my friend's house
snow storms = hot cocoa, sledding, and good times with friends
studying and teaching theology as an art, not a science
being with people who love and appreciate beauty
being exposed to good stories
hearing music that actually came from someone's soul
co-loving the creation with other people
embracing the ridiculous
a sense of the wonder of God
... and folks who know and appreciate James Taylor...
Home.
11 Weeks.